Baby #4!!!

We are expecting baby number 4! Am I excited? Just a little! I am now 15 days past ovulation (dpo) and I got my first positive test on Sunday morning! I wasn't even sure if it was positive, it was so faint but a more sensitive test that same afternoon was unmistakable. I will admit that I took another test on the next two mornings just to be sure and they were indeed darker each morning. I'm still in shock a bit and I doubt that will wear off anytime soon. It doesn't help that we have only told 5 people! Lawrence always prefers waiting to tell people. While its a bit easier this time around because were not in Terrace where we see all our close friends and family almost daily.
I am not even 4 weeks along and i'm showing quite noticably. I shouldn't be overly surprised given my past pregnancies. With Gabe, I started showing around 7 weeks, with Noah around 6, and with lily right at 4 weeks. When I asked my Dr. about showing so early with Lily she told me its quite normal. okay. I have a ladies bible study tonight and i'm not sure if i'm going to go simply because last night no matter what I put on it was very obvious. It doesn't help that its been hot here that last few days so I can't hide under a hoody, especially because the church where the bible study is held is usually overly hot!!
I've been getting progressivly more and more queezy as each day passes. So far its worst in the evenings which is just fine with me! Its way easier to deal with when the kids are almost in bed then first thing in the morning when their all awake and needing breakfast and the house needs cleaning etc.
We haven't told the kids yet and the only family that knows is Jeremy and Tasha because they live with us so can't really hide it! I'm chomping at the bit to spill the beans to everyone! But then i can't help but be nervous about how early it is. What if.....
I had a miscarriage between Gabe and Noah and I have a friend that just had one at 8 weeks. I don't want to live in fear but its hard. But honestly I don't know how I can possibly hide it here for another week let alone month.
Before this first post turns into the longest ever....I'm sure i'll be back on here by tomorrow....or even just later today...haha